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<\/a><\/p>\nJanuary \u2013 I had four dental surgeries<\/p>\n
I am pretty afraid of doctors (by mean: terrified even if they just want to measure my blood pressure), but I had pretty serious gum problems, so I needed four surgeries to save my teeth. I was petrified and the recovery was long, but after one year I can tell it was worth it. Before the surgeries I tried to avoid them and look for an another doctor\u2019s opinion, it was just fear.<\/p>\n
February \u2013 First book event<\/p>\n
Naturally I am really afraid of public speaking, but in my home town I had my first book launch event with television interview and a talk with me in front of 30ish people. It was wonderful. My voice a little bit trembled for the first some minutes, but it was the best experience.<\/p>\n
March – Four flights in two weeks<\/p>\n
Oh, flying my love, my biggest fear ever. But this year in two weeks we visited Dublin then Barcelona. Still hate flying I am still struggling. But Barcelona and Dublin was wonderful.<\/p>\n
April \u2013 I went for longer walks alone<\/p>\n
I started to go on longer walks when I let go my agoraphobia a little bit. My husband goes by bus to work every day, so I started to walk for further and further to pick him up. It helped me a lot. Everything is in our mind, because before that I was shaking when I had to go out on the streets then I started to release the tension. I don\u2019t have to go out, now I want to go out.<\/p>\n
May \u2013\u00a0 I went for shopping alone<\/p>\n
It wasn\u2019t a huge success at first. It was okay for me to go inside the shop and browse, but I was rather shaky when I had to pay. I had to call my mom to lead my trough this frightening process, then sometimes I just went into the shop, look at the butter that I needed and went out with empty hands. It\u2019s not a failure, it\u2019s funny even. But then I started to pay with cash (I don\u2019t know why but paying with card was even more terrifying) and in November I actually went to Primarkt (huge, three storey big) and It was all okay.<\/p>\n
June \u2013 Book events<\/p>\n
In March and June in Hungary there are two book festivals. I was filled with doubts. I was afraid that nobody is going to come and what they are going to tell me about my books. But these book events are the best ever, I can talk to my readers face to face and I always get so much love and care.<\/p>\n
July \u2013 We went to Wales by car<\/p>\n
Yep, left-hand driving is a big thing for us. I haven\u2019t got a license yet, but I always sit in the front seat next to my husband, try to navigate him. His license is new, so I am always afraid a little bit, but we survived the three hour drive. It was a really exciting trip.<\/p>\n
August \u2013 I dyed my hair purple and went on a concert<\/p>\n
Before thirty I tried some extra stuff. I was a little bit afraid but my hairdresser is the best ever, so it turned out really nice, but yep these colorful dyes just stay in for some weeks unfortunately. And I have to mention the concerts. When my anxiety was really bad I tried to avoid crowded places, and yeah a concert was a big no for me. But last year we went to Sziget Festival and enjoyed The Chainsmokers concert, and before that we went on Marianas Trench in February.<\/p>\n
September \u2013 I went on a bus alone<\/p>\n
Yes, one of my biggest fear ever. In September we went back to Cracow and I got on a bus alone and a tram as well. For me it\u2019s a huge achievement after three year of avoidance. I was shaking, I had to talk to my Mom, but still I did it. Still a long way to go.<\/p>\n
October \u2013 I visited London Eye and London Dungeon<\/p>\n
Super creepy. The London Eye is too high, too closed in, but still the view was amazing (after like ten minutes I could enjoy it). And the Dungeon is creepy, frightening, under the ground. For the first half an hour I felt super bad and they have some rides too in the darkness. But still it was awesome.<\/p>\n
November \u2013 I went on NaNoWriMo meeting<\/p>\n
It\u2019s hard for me to meet new people in new places. I am not a native speaker, sometimes I struggle to understand native British accent, but I am trying to connect, meet new people and bear down my fears.<\/p>\n
December \u2013 I\u2019ve got my first tattoo<\/p>\n
That was quite frightening too. I am hypochondriac as well, so I was afraid the ink is gonna poison me or something like that. And of course I was afraid it\u2019s gonna be ugly, but no. It\u2019s beautiful and I am really happy with it.<\/p>\n
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In December my publisher came out with an idea that I should ride on a big wheel with one of my readers as a gift. In my previously published book my main characters visit Coney Island every year that\u2019s why … Continue reading